Sorry. I feel at this point it's an addiction. I cant help myself. I know I'll be disappointed clicking. And worse, I'll get angry and hate myself falling for another How I Made Thousands on Medium article. But I dont stop. I dont even know if I'm consciously thinking about it. I just click. Its curiosity. Will this one be different? Will I learn something new? Is there a pattern? But again and again it's all down to randomness . Each story contradicting the previous. No one clear route. A conflict of truths. And I've moved pass the curious phase. I'm on an endless clickbait cycle. I must look. Save for later. Look again. And again and again. It's a low level addiction that eats away at my psyche. It tells me I'm not quite good enough. That I should be doing better. That every read reinforces just how inadequate a job I'm doing. Its harmful. Its psychologically damaging and I havent realised the trauma, the negging, the gaslighting. Maybe this is why others are clicking. Low self esteem or imposter syndrome. I'm not failing at Medium but it does feel like that sometimes.